the cross he died for sin, look around, what did he win?

There was a lady who gave birth to a child that needed Intensive care. The child was basically dead, and stayed in the ICU for weeks. After a few weeks the baby had gotten better, and the mother had blessed this occurrence with a "miracle", and act of jesus. But why did "jesus" let this child to be born about to die in the first place and allow the mother to struggle every day, sitting beside her almost lifeless newborn? What kind of masochist do people believe in? What kind of person, or creature, can sit and watch or let people suffer? So he can make them better, to get all the credit? Not the doctors with thier prestigious education, and million dollar medical equipment that helped save a life. Or what about Sarah Palin, and her strong belief that god is great, that her daughter is about to have a "gift from god", who is an unmarried(premarital sex, a sin), underage daughter who was impregnated by a guy who just got arrested on 10 felony charges? Go pray to jesus on his birthday, "I hope you have a great day today", because tomorrow I will still have my wife who cheats on me, and my mortgage i can hardly pay off, that i have been praying to you for years for advice"
Why did god create people who do not believe in him, or believe in other ways of salvation and enlightenment. Why did he "create" distractions and choices for people to make if everyone should follow him? How come inbred americans who eat 5 big macs a day dismiss whatever you have to say when its full of logic and reason, and ideas to question authority? Because people are afraid of thought and offending strangers, and afraid of change, People enjoy being comfortable.
Why am I stuck on the 3rd christmas in a row sitting on a ship away from my loved ones, defending a country against "terrorism", which is an absurd notion to begin with and an act that jesus was supposed to die for, I just feel im the martyr for his bullshit and laziness. Merry crucifixion motherfucker.

Religion is the impotence of the human mind to deal with occurrences it cannot understand. Karl Marx